First of all, a crib update: I took the crib apart and Vivi's mattress is now on the floor (on top of a very soft, fuzzy blanket) surrounded by all her stuffed animal friends. This way I don't have to worry about her getting hurt as she continually crawls out of her crib. It actually is working pretty good. She had been falling asleep in front of the door, but the last couple nights she's stayed in her bed which is encouraging. She loves her 'new' bed; she jumped on it right away, sprints into the room and throws herself on it, and jumps from our bed onto hers. It actually has made her a lot more willing to play by herself in the bedroom, which is great because it makes our house seem a little bigger.
Last week as I had the opportunity to deconstruct a crib by myself, make pumpkin chocolate chip muffins (yum!), and my house stayed relatively clean, I couldn't help but think 'This is how I've wanted it to be; I've arrived.' I realize that it presumptious; my house has since turned into a toy/clothes warzone and there are now dishes in the sink (that will not get done tonight). However, I do believe after 3-4 months of being home, I am just now starting to feel more comfortable and get in a groove. I honestly didn't think it would take this long. I figured it would take me a week to decompress, but after that my house would always be clean and I'd make dinner every night. That hasn't happened exactly, but I have finally learned for myself something that I've been told my whole life: do small clean ups as you go along. I never had the energy to do the dishes right after dinner, but pots really are easier to clean if you don't let them sit overnight! Our bedroom still accumulates quite the mess, but a lot of that has to do with the fact that I can't get in there during the day because Doug is in there sleeping.
Anyway, I don't know if I will ever be one of those women whose house is spotless and everything is always clean. However, I do feel more comfortable with the cleanliness of my home...there's not as much clutter because I've had time to go through some of the piles of stuff. I will keep working towards always having a perfect home, but I've realized that's just not one of my priorities right now. Maybe someday, but until then I will let myself be satisified with the progress I have made :)
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I think it is safe to say that you are ahead of the "learning curve". It took me a year to feel used to being at home, rather than at work.
Well, I'm still working 16 hours per week, so I'm not at home completely. It's actually a nice combo, but there are definitely days where I don't feel like working outside or inside the home :)
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